Thursday, July 23, 2009

it's final


Probably the hardest part of motherhood for me, so far, is the worry, the constant questioning of whether I'm doing the right thing. With a baby comes big changes and big decisions. I often feel like I lack the wisdom needed to figure these things out. But that's life, isn't it? Thankfully, my mom is always available to reassure me that it will all work out.

So after 2 years of working full-time at my dream job, and many more previous years working to finally get that coveted position, I turned in my resignation yesterday. Was it the right decision? I don't know, but I'm looking forward to this new schedule (I'll still teach part-time) that will allow me more time with my girl. I realize I'm really lucky to be faced with this decision, but, man, is it still hard!


These photos are of a quilt that my aunt made for me when I was little. We use it when Cora is practicing her upward facing dog, and I love to look at all the fabrics that were used. There is so much detail to take in.

9 comments:

  1. This is a big decision! I've so enjoyed hearing about Cora and motherhood through your blog. Knowing you, you'll make the absolute most of your time at home. :)

    The photos of Cora with your parents are really heart warming. I know they love being grandparents!

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  2. PS, that's the first time I've seen that quilt Mama made you.

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  3. sad, but i know you made the right decision-- you wouldn't have been able to do it if it wasn't.
    i'm excited for our adventures!!

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  4. wow, i think i knew that this was coming but still it is amazing. i know how hard you worked for that position but i also know how much you have been looking forward to motherhood. you are indeed lucky to have that decision to make. you can always return when Cora gets older. kids give us the clarity to see how precious life is. i'm glad you are enjoying motherhood so much.

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  5. Hey Kayla, (This is Michelle. I found your blog through Julie's blog)
    Of course you made the right decision! And how lucky are you... you get to work AND enjoy time with your little sweetie! I wish I could find a part time job that I felt was worth the time away from my boys. Working part time can be rewarding in many ways. You actually get to do something for yourself. Plus, as much as we all love our kids, you find out how much more you love them by having just a little time away.
    We need to set Marcus and Cora up for a play date while their mamas do some sewing. What do you think? Party at Julie's house!

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  6. I can understand how this is a big decision...So long as you keep YOUR goals in sight and at finger's length, I think you made the best decision for your family. Congratulations!

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  7. OH, I almost forgot, I LOVE that quilt! How adorable!

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  8. (I'd just like to preface my comment by saying your post moved me to tears!) I think with this and every other decision as a mom you're going to question yourself, which is good to some extent, but you gotta learn to trust your instinct. It's uncanny how often it's right on. Only you know what's best for your family, but I'm sure you'll always be glad you spent this extra time with Cora, especially while she's still so little. You're such a sweet mom; it's clear you treasure your daughter!

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  9. Seems that our lives are on q very similar time line. How wonderful that the magic of the internet could bring us together. :)

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